A Day in the Park

Ruby's first Strawberry Lemonade at Cafe Lalo

Two Years Today

Miss eating and laughing with you, sister.

Anna's dreams

This Sunday marks two long years of missing Anna. This is a hard week of remembering, because the memories are the painful details of two years ago. But summer is here, and Anna was summer...we all have zillions of summer Anna memories. Here is a list of her dreams that I found in one of her journals. Summer dreams, all (well, except for snowboarding and the Knicks!)...

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Hiking on the salmon river
Oregon coast – hike in to fields sleep listen for seals
B’way shows – annie a chorus line, Oklahoma
Spend every summer on the beach
Snowboard
Do Puzzles
Have BBQs on summer evenings
Dance in summer rain
Watch for Oregon rainbows
Ride bikes – long rides too and camping
Read Charlotte’s Web together
Go see outdoor music concerts
Crafts: tie dye, batik, potato prints, make t-shirts make jewelry
Eat dinner together and talk about our days
Write/tell stories
Drive cross country
Play wiffleball
Go to a Knicks game
Go to a Mets/Yankees game

Mostly now I am worried I am not living full enough – where are my mountains, oceans, hikes, camping, ice-cold water, swims, running dogs, spicy foods, shining sun, snow boarding, organic salsa + chips + large pine trees
I crave these things
Sharing the love and joy of these experiences

I too want to live as madly as deeply as I can

Be so acutely aware of love and small pleasures – savoring the moments

Still able to be radical, and live freely, and still feel connected to the earth – the beautiful earth.

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Ruby and Dario, these are the things she did with you, and the things she wanted to spend 100 years doing with you. You are her love and joy.

The picture at the top of this post is from the forest in Oregon where a bunch of us (including Chico, Ruby, and Dario) are going camping this summer. We'll be sure to post pictures of us in this very spot looking for amphibians and rainbows!

May 25

Just thinking about Anna on this sad happy day. Here's a photo I found from high school - it's total Anna: strength, humor, joy, fight. Love you Anna. I miss you and your amazing hugs so much. Happy Birthday. Druckaaah

Four!!

Christmas '07

Last night at Christmas Eve dinner at Woo's house, Annie asked, "Who made the green bread*?" I told her, I did.
Woo made a comment about me making good green bread.
Ruby said, "My mommy made good green bread."
Woo said, "Your mommy made the best green bread!"
I said, "She was the queen of green bread!"
Earlier in the day, as I was making the green bread, I said to Woo, "Where is she? Making green bread is her job!!"
(*Green bread is a kind of garlic bread made with scallions that Woo invented, but Anna perfected.)

Merry Christmas!

From Dario

That's a big thing to write on... Umm Mommy showed flowers as a surprise!!! Dario wants more pictures just so they can know Ruby is 7.
Love Dario
P.S. Dario is sitting on my lap looking at the mommy website for the first time in months. He says if you can put more pictures here he can put more on his computer. We watched the link to the rock video three times so we could see Anna with the funny hair and flowers.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo to everybody.