Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Time passes...

Maggie wrote the following poems four years ago. She was going to try and read them at Anna's memorial service but she couldn't.

Hi I am Maggie Helmes, I am 9 years old. I am the oldest niece of Sa. I wrote 3 poems for Sa. I wrote a cinquian, an ode and an acrostic poem. My first poem will be my cinquian.

Sa
Very Caring
Friends of many
Tried to beat cancer
Brave

Ode to Sa
Sa, you were as sweet as a chocolate chip cookie. You
were as caring as a lamb. You were as brave as an
Indian warrior. You were the friendliest person in the
world because you have amazing friends. You are now
a shining star and not sick anymore. We will always
remember you and miss you. We love you so much.

ANNA
A person that
Nobody will forget
Never stopped trying to get better
Always will be in our hearts

-Maggie Helmes, June 2006

And now, four years later, Maggie is 13 years old and wrote the following for her 7th grade English class.










Her Car.

Her faded yellow, old worn down car.

Chips of paint scatter beneath it on the grimy gravel,

Weeds weave around the flat tires,

Mud is caked upon the smudged glass windows,

Dirt and Dust blanket the car,

hiding it from the pain and grief surrounding it.

Abandoned, it waits for her,

to sit in the seats, replacing the mold with warmth and love,

to touch the steering wheel, wiping away the cobwebs with the tenderness of

her hands

to drive away from the sadness and tears to a place full of celebration

and happiness.

It waits

And waits

And waits.

No one tells it she won’t come back.

So it keeps waiting

With its

Stained carpets

Rotten odor

And many memories

Of

Laughter.

Joy.

Death.

~Maggie Helmes, June 2010


Four years has gone by so quickly, but at the same time, it seems like forever.


xxoo

Yum

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Four-Oh.

I can only imagine the birthday bash for your 40th. Everyone is telling me to celebrate on your behalf, but it's not in me to celebrate when I'm missing you so much. But I will do my best and will fake it: strawberries, pound cake, and whipped cream for the kids tonight in you honor.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Monday, June 29, 2009

Thinking of you and your hugs

I miss you and love love.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Earth to Anna: Happy Birthday

It is you I remember on this day, dear friend, not the veterans, which you would like. Still miss you madly and constantly. Maybe this birthday will move me to scan some old pictures. love love.

Monday, April 6, 2009

I still miss your hugs.

I keep dreaming about Anna. Anyone else? It's almost 3 yrs. and I feel like it's only now hitting me fully. Like someone said then: I'd have sooner believed she'd have a Nobel Peace Prize by now than this. I miss her and I thank her for constantly reminding me to be grateful. It just makes no sense at all.

I keep reading about the new production of "Hair" and thinking that I'd drag her to go with me so we could relive our nights watching the movie at my apt. Maybe we should rally a group and go?

Times are tough for everybody but every time I catch myself complaining, I think what she'd tell me: "Suck it up boy." And then I think that it's a luxury to even have tough times. I wish she hadn't taught me that. But she did. I love you Anna and I know it's so selfish- but I could use one of your amazing full-bosomed hugs.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Obama Anna

Anna how I wish you had been here to celebrate with us this week this most historic and joyful moment. You would have loved Obama, this I know, and I thought about you so much on election night as I was experiencing that unadulterated joy, running around in my yard in the rain w/fairy wings on, screaming "Obama," and calling everyone close to me to share the joy. I so wanted to talk to you. You'd be pissed about prop 8, but how happy you would be for your children (both Ruby and Dario, as well as all those you taught over the years) to see this brown man elected as pres - and in NC too of all places!