Lucky House Steps

Lots of pictures and stories to come, but for now, here we are on the Lucky House steps after going to the Sandy River.
From bottom to top and from left to right:
Ruby, Nina, Twylo, Fred, Misty, Alicia, Pascale, Tom, Jody, Dario, Chiq, Denk, Cynthia, Libby, Krack (John) and Louisa.

At the farm with Cynthia.

Scouting the rivers

I went out to the Salmon River last week. Anna Noah and I decided once to go on a camping trip out there & then it happened to be the opening night of The Blair Witch Project and I didn't know anything about it but Anna got us there early to get in line and we made it into cinema 21. Probably the most terrifying movie I've ever seen. And then, off from there to the oregon woods.
A real sleepless one of shrieking at every breaking twig, every night bird. So scary and I know Anna got a real thrill from it. And good old puppa.

The next day we swam in what I still declare to be the coldest water in the world.

This time I did not go swimming. It was raining and foggy. Just thinking of her and missing her.
Itwould be good for us all to go out there together except for the road has been blocked off and there is about a half mile of trail which at one point is crossed by big fallen trees and a new creek.
This is my report. Anywhere else I should be scouting.. i'll try to get out to the sandy..

love love indeed
Denk

moisturizer and love

i wanted to share a quick story for dario. when his mom was pregnant with him we (maud, noah, anna, chiq and me) all shared a house out in the hamptons one weekend to go to ali marsh's wedding to fred. i have many pictures of dario inside anna's tummy - and his dad, chiq, putting moisturizer on anna's legs. he was taking really good care of anna to make sure she felt well and so dario would be safe and sound. i guess it's not really a story... and maybe his dad massaging moisturizer onto his mom's legs isn't the most earth-shattering moment -- but to me, it was just a wonderful happy image of chiq taking care of anna (and dario). and anna was so happy to pet her tummy and know that dario was in there - she couldnt wait to see him!


i also attach a couple of photos from the night that amanda guinzburg wrote about in an earlier post. we had a wonderful night reminiscing and feeling the safety of old, familiar friendships. the irony of that night (which amanda pointed out) is unbelievable. of the people assembled, i think only ali and anna knew. but look at her anna lo smiles!!!!

Chico's Tattoo

This was taken on Chiq's cell phone a couple hours after it was done.

Pictures from Alicia

To go with her recent stories.






To go with her recent stories.

Stories from Maud

Right after D was born I moved into a new apartment. Anna was the kind of mom who would go anywhere with her kids so even though D was just a little baby and I had no furniture she came downtown on the subway for a visit with Ali and Phoebe. I think Amy might have come too. We all sat on the floor taking turns holding baby Dario and then he took a nice nap on my air mattress (I didn't even have a bed yet!). Afterwards, I felt much more at home in that apartment.

Another quick one--Anna was always so proud of how smart Dario is. Whenever I would say, "I can't believe how much Dario is talking or how good he is at singing songs" or whatever it might be, Anna would get this huge smile on her face and beam at Dario and say, "I know" and Dario would smile back his cuter than cute smile which would make Anna smile even bigger and brighter. It was a very beautiful smile fest!

Love, m

Little Man. Rrubah. Chico.

I can hear her voice so clearly in my head that sometimes it scares me.
The way she called Dario, Little Man.
The way she called Ruby, Rrubah.
And Chiq, Chico with her Spanish twang.
When I read things she wrote, it's like she is standing right next to me. I can hear her that crystal clear in my brain.

Hannah, today that grief hole is swallowing me whole.